Hello followers. It’s been a while. .. im still alive. I now have internet so I should be on me regularly.
As some of you may know (some don’t)
I got married at the beginning of the year. With my amazing wife whom I love dearly.
However lately things have been a little. .. tense.. we’ve had alot of stupid little fights. The fights Where on their own you look back the next day and go~… wow.. that was stupid. ~ but weve had a lot recently. .. over really stupid things like being on the phone while watching movies or doing the dishes/laundry ect. REALLY STUPID THINGS. But they’ve been happening almost daily. One of my big things is the phone usage when is ok and when not Ok
Lately we’ve been wondering why we fight so Dam much. We still love each other. We still find each other amazing. So why? ?
I realised today that ive changed. Before I still loved abby (my wife) but I have been hurt so many times that I’d come to accept theidea that we might break up one day bc I do something stupid, and I would just have to treasure the memory. - however now I am terrified to lose her. (In the emotional sence and physical. She’s in the army..lets not make a long story longer)
And im so paranoid and self conscious and afraid that I think that it might be part of it. That and the stress of living on the complete opposite side of the us as my family.(yay army)
since making this realization ivr been in a shit mood and can’t make it go away. To the point where is affecting my marriage more than the fights themselves.
Anyway if anyone has read all the way thru this I would love some advice.
Thank you for your time